Today marks the final day of my life with education. I have been in school for 19 years. Now it’s time to officially say goodbye to that long life I once know. Can’t help feeling nostalgic. There are some significant events that happened throughout my schooling life that helped shape me into who I am today. But now is not the time to list them all out. Too lazy.

I am having mixed feelings with graduation. On one hand, I’m happy that I am graduating. On the other hand, I have sad that I am graduating. I don’t like stepping out of my comfort zone. Although I am always being forced to do so after every stage of my life. I think this is the first transition ever that I didn’t really have to step out of my comfort zone. But who knows. Later in my career, I might need to go to some places that I don’t like at first and fall in love in the later stage of my life. Like Australia.

I have came a long way since first stepping onto Australian soil. I have experienced so many different kind of feelings as well. Anger. Sadness. Happiness. Disappointment. Love. Heartbreak. Lust. Longing. Scared. Worry. Weary. Ecstatic. Excitement. Basically all kinds of feelings. Though at times I might have looked back and regret some of the things I have done, but I guess everything happens for a reason. I have to wait and see how my decisions make things pan out in the end.

Life at the moment isn’t the greatest. I still have so many uncertainties in my life. There are stuff that I know I want, but at the same time I know I can’t have it. Ever. People say time heals all wounds. But would time be able to heal me now? There is definitely going to be a scar but the question here is, would I be able to recover from it? Again, only time would tell.

Life is a rollercoaster. I have to ride it all away till the final destination arrives – back at the start.

I feel myself falling quick and fast
A love spell I’m sure you’ve cast
Fear and desire both in me
How can I just let it be

It’s forbidden, yes I know
But for you, my yearnings grow
To see, to talk and to laugh with you
And probably start with you life anew

This should stop and I know I must
As this thing we have could not ever last
Though it started not long ago
I’m now caught in the undertow

What should I do now, I ask
Ahead of me is a grueling task
I’m afraid that I’ll fall and fail
And not even live to tell this tale

Years later I shall be telling this with a sigh
About my life that once went awry
All are back to as before
Till the phoenix arises once more

I haven’t really been blogging much lately. Life has been quite different now since stepping into the full time working world. More on that later. So I welcomed the new year up in the plane with Erik. The two weeks back in Malaysia was good. I met up with friends and when Erik came, I brought him around to places. I actually haven’t been to some of the places such as the revolving restaurant up in KL Towers and Batu Caves. It was a good experience for me as well.

After coming back from KL, I had to start packing my stuff to move up north to Nollamara. I accumulated a lot of junk in 4 years of me being in Perth. I had 10 small boxes, 3 medium boxes and 2 large boxes. I also had 2 luggage bags and my laptop bag. It took 3 cars to transport my stuff and that includes 2 seven-seater cars. You can imagine how much stuff I have through this.

But I reckon it is quite a wise move to go up north. Last time when I still staying in Nedlands, I go back to a house of quiet people. I didn’t get to talk much at home let alone socialize. The only socializing I was doing was through the computer and phone. Since moving up north, I would socialize with more people. Makes me happier that way. The down side is that I am now in Zone 2 and I am further from the city. However I am willing to pay the price. I think it’s worth it.

I took my IELTS test on 12^th. I am kinda afraid of the results as I zoned out in the listening test. I was bored. Don’t blame me. I have short attention span. I need to improve on that. Results will be released in about 10 more days’ time as of now. I can only hope for the best.

Of course, my 23^rd birthday fell on a Sunday. I wanted to do a BBQ at the beach but apparently it was going to thunderstorm (WHAT LIES!) so I did it in my house instead. It was good although I kept getting teased about me being Mrs Tran. Sigh. When will it stop aye. But all in good fun. They gave me a very nice watch from Fossil. You can see the picture on my Instagram on the right of this post. It is one of the few that I have been eyeing for. So I am quite glad. At night, I had a great dinner with a good friend. It was a good dinner and hangout session. All in all, it was a great 23^rd.

So now, I have nothing much to look forward to except work and more work. I am actually looking forward to more work load as I don’t have much stuff to do at work now.

Oh. Something I forgot. I have no idea what to get myself for my birthday. I wanna get something that I can indulge in. And of course, I would reckon it’s a tech gadget. Any ideas?

Of course, this won’t last long as I embark on another journey this coming Monday back to Malaysia =D

Hong Kong and Taiwan was awesome. In Hong Kong, we went to Ocean Park and Disneyland. Both were magical. Rides were awesome and performances were even better. We then went to Macau for a day trip. We watched a Water Performance there and it was so good. Words can’t describe how good is that show.

In Taiwan, we were treated to a more country style trip. We went to a gorge and it was simply amazing. Apparently there was an earthquake there like 2 days before we went there and thus it was the ‘dangerous’ period. Luckily, nothing happened to us there. But then, I fell sick in Taiwan. That sucked big time because I couldn’t eat all the amazingly cheap fried stuff. Oh well. We slept in quite often in Taiwan and that was good. We also went to the Hot Springs in Taiwan and we swore not to tell anyone what happened there. Mum’s the word.

So now, I am at work. It’s a Friday. And I’m leaving for Malaysia on Monday. Yippee!

On a more solemn note, results might be released today. How I miss the time when I used to lie to people saying results are out and they would check and find out that I am lying. Fun times. Can’t do that anymore in the future. Sigh. Speaking of lying, I need to find new gullible friends. All of my friends now don’t believe anything I say anymore. Which is sad. I no longer have the fun in making them believe my lies. Like the boy who cried wolf. Sigh.

But yay! Friday! Another 6.5 hours of work to suffer through. May God be with me.

Hong Kong tomorrow. Enough said.

Tomorrow is the final day of my undergrad studies. Enough said.

I only have 2 more weeks of uni left. 4 years of uni. Gone. Just like the wind. How time managed to sneak by me so fast amazes me. I could still remember clearly the first time I stepped on Australian soil and breathed in the amazingly cold, crisp fresh air. Till date, I can still remember the smell of it.

Then on to my first day of Orientation in uni. I got to know so many amazing people. Prita, Ben, Sin Yee, Kishan, Jacky etc etc etc. Then from that little circle, my network grew bigger and I got to know people like Joseph, Adrian etc etc. We had such a great fun first year where we were all carefree, played poker in the Ref, went timezone countless times etc.

Second year was the year where I engrossed myself into church activities. It was possibly the most spiritual year of them all. I embarked on an amazing journey with churchmates and learnt a lot about God’s plan and His word. And again, my circle of friends grew and people that I hung out with changed a little bit.

And then came the pre-hectic third year. I celebrated my first every birthday here in Perth. First semester was amazing because I started to hang out with everyone. I grew much closer to the mech guys as well. This was a year full of assignments and uni work. Again, I got to know more people as I joined ISS and MCW. My circle of friends expanded even more this year.

Finally, came fourth year. The final year. The last of my continuous education year. Finito. Omega. End. The year started out with a major drama. It was also the most hectic year of my life. Trying to juggle work, thesis, uni work and social life is quite hard. But thanks to amazing people all around me, I manage to persevere. Of course, I know more people this year as well as I was the managing director. Such a posh position. Haha.

That sort of sums up my four years of uni. It was, and is, an amazing journey. 2 last weeks of uni. I will surely cherish this increasingly decreasing time.

On to thesis. I had my presentation yesterday. Although it was only 10% of the entire mark, I was still pretty scared. My supervisor had me worried as she warned me saying that in previous years, there was a student that didn’t get his concept right and the school had to fail him. I was so nervous for my presentation. And when I was going to give my speech, the chair was a person who is a corrosion expert while the marker is a materials expert. Both would be able to pick up my errors clearly in my presentation.

I was so scared and nearly died of nervousness. But in the end, I had the support of many friends and I was so glad to have them all there. I even got a praise from the chairperson saying that I was confident! I guess that is good, right?

So now, all I have left for thesis is my write up which I have 20 pages at the moment. I’m just so lazy to do my write up. I guess it’s okay for me to procrastinate for the next few days first. Or maybe not. I don’t know. I procrastinate enough at work anyway. Haha.

I guess it’s back to work for me. Till then!

我发现当我心情低落的时候，我会回到我的＇根＇去。我最快乐的时候是在我中学的生活。每天去上学，快快乐乐的跟朋友交谈，不停的开玩笑。当时我什么都没怎么理，每天只顾着玩罢了。

没想到，一5眨眼，四年的大学生涯就快要结束了。我就快要踏入＂大人世界＂了。我不在会有机会回到我天真的世界了。时间真的不留情。唉。。。